The Shop And My Breakdown

I feel like crap right now. I feel as though I have gotten this far into being accepted by the university and still have not improved since high school. I just took a multiple choice test for "The Shop". Apparently if you do not pass it, you can not use the workshop. I felt positive that I could pass it because I deal with safety on a daily basis and I know how to use most of the machinery. Anyways I missed 4 and you can only miss 3 on the test. So they give you the option of taking the test again right now or taking it sometime before next Thursday. So I take it again since its fresh in my head and they tell you the ones you missed. Now this one is a fill in the blank and multiple choice so I wind up missing 6 on this one, even worse!

The hand out they give you covers some of the rules but most of the questions come from the video which they tell you to take notes during. You watch the video once then you take the quiz right afterward. I barely read the first page on the hand out before they started the video. I feel like I'm complaining too much but this does bother me quite a lot! Now I have to bring an instructor with me at all times when I go to check things out or use the facilities. Which is a bunch of crap. Why can't I take this test every few weeks or so? What is the point of having the presents of an instructor while you work every time? To remind you how much you fucked up on that test?

I guess I'm more aware how valuable passing the test is but I'll just have to study until next semester when I can take it again. I feel like I can't doing anything! I feel totally helpless right now. Whatever there is to study is not enough, just this hand out which only has the easy stuff. All the details are on the video. I've looked online for more but its not enough. My notes look like shit and I don't know what some of them mean. I don't want to blame myself but it looks like I'll have to.

I'm ready to move on to something else now, like eating food or sleeping.